2016 was one of the hardest years of my writing career. I’ve grown a lot since I first started publishing my work for the public. I know that hard times give way to good. It just takes time.
One of the most valuable lessons I learned along the way is that there are many ups and downs in this career I have chosen. It can be wildly unpredictable. But I know why 2016 was so hard, and I had very little control in the end. Because I was so ill in 2015, I had very little output. I was incapable of writing for most of that year. It was devestating not to be able to write. My brain was dealing with a massive PTSD storm, and my creativity vanished.
My recovery in 2016 was steady, but my productivity was hindered. I wrote the equivilant of four novels last year. The Lament of the Vampire Bride is the size of two put together. I self-published two novels. The third went to my agent. I didn’t write enough books last year to staunch the decline in sales. I am glad that I ended one series (The Vampire Bride Dark Rebirth trilogy) and continued another (The LIving Dead Boy series), but I didn’t manage to write another book for The Last Bastion series. By November, I was mentally exhausted, and knew I had to take a break. I was a little bummed by that fact, but there is only so much I can do when dealing with health issues.
The good news is that my health is improving. I am feeling stronger both physically and mentally. I’ve learned how to take care of both my body and mind. I no longer push myself until I break or burn out. I learned the very hard way that it’s better to have low productivity than wipe myself out and end up with zero output.
The symbolism of a new year is one I enjoy. It gives me a fresh starting point to measure from. It also allows me to mentally put the past year’s events behind me. 2015 & 2016 were very difficult years for me, but I’m looking forward to 2017. I’m determined to make it a productive year.
It’s time to start anew.